Loving the green bathwater

I used to be quite good at communication. I used to be able to use language effectively and formulate my ideas in a comprehensive manner. I seem to have lost this skill. Or at least it seems to have atrophied. Time to exercise it a bit.

To start with, I'll rave about my green bath. I bought a colour bath packet at Little Mysteries yesterday...the turquoise is supposed to help focus concentration, communication and thoughts. I tried it out today, and I feel energized.

I spent the day yesterday with a work associate. I don't know her very well, we started at this job at the same time, and we work on opposite shifts. She is new to the area, so we got together to go to the Saturday Market at the waterfront. I enjoyed most of the day, save for the fact that I could not seem to form a single sentence. All of the things that I am interested in, passionate about, the topics that I really wanted to discuss, I ended up sounding like a moron. Like someone who says they know about this or that, but really can't back that up with any hard evidence. I'm not that way, but I was not able to demonstrate this effectively. I'll be lucky if I can ever have an interesting conversation again.

The disturbing part is that this is an individual that I feel must have been put in my path for a reason. I get a sense from her that we have things to learn from each other. I have had this feeling in the past, and it has never led me wrong.

The whole month that I spent in training with the others I felt isolated, which while not unusual for me was upsetting as I was not trying to isolate myself this time. I wanted to connect with these people and I wanted to build a foundation with them that could carry over into our work environment. Looking back now, I can see that I have started to form some connections, but they are taking longer than I thought that they would. Perhaps in the end they will prove to be strong because of it...perhaps the test here is patience.

We'll see...I'll keep you posted (ha!)